I'm frustrated with academics now. I hate getting up at 7:00 every morning to go to a class that is really boring and also, I hardly understand anything. My passion for physics and engineering is going away slowly. If any IIT aspirant is reading this, then you better be prepared 'coz if you are not interested in what you're studying right now, then I can assure you that you will definitely not be interested after coming to IIT. Even if you are interested there is a good chance that you will lose your interest, unless it is really really strong. If you do lose your interest then the only way of continuing in IIT is either you forget your passions, accept that this is what you'll have to do if you want a high-paying job, or you just try to get good grades by putting in the least effort, copying practical readings, taking chill courses (which give good grades).
I'm not doing any of that right now, well, I have copied readings once in a while but I don't wanna continue with that. I think maybe I should drop out, but it's a tough decision, because I don't know what I will do after it. Would I go to another college once again? If yes, then which one? If no, then what will I do after it? And what about the hostel life and my friends. I have made such good friends here and I enjoy living in the hostel so much that it would be very difficult to leave all of this for an uncertain path where I may not meet people who become such good friends and connect with me so well. I do realize that in life if you want to do something, you need to take risks but I would be much more willing to take them if I took them for pursuing something I am really passionate about. Else, it would be more of stupidity than risk. So for now on, I think I'm gonna continue with IIT and attend 8:00 classes all 5 weekdays and try to listen in class :( But I am trying to find my interest and I hope to find something in which I'm so interested that I can quit IIT for it
A Spoonful of Smile
1 year ago