Friday, April 17, 2009

The confused me

Today, while taking a break from viewing quantum mechanics lecture videos, I went down for some water. I met Benjo who asked me what was up. I told him that I had this presentation of a b-plan competition coming up in which I had been selected for the finals. Our team still hadn't done anything about it till now. He asked me if I wanted to do an MBA after IIT. I told him that I don't know. Right now, I find all the available prospects like MBA, MS and going for a job crappy. I told him that at the end of the 4th year, I'll go for whatever I find the least crappy. It's not like me to be usually negative but it was an honest answer. The thought that I find all the paths that IIT leads to crappy is a scary one which worries me most these days. I like viewing quantum mechanics lectures on internet even though I do it very irregularly, I love the idea of winning a B plan competition but I haven't worked for it. I would love to become a prof. but I absolutely hate studying. Every day I come to my hostel after classes (or wake up realizing that I missed all the classes), I hardly do anything. I have rough idea of things which I want to do that day but no plan. In the end, I just end up searching arbitrary things related to our b-plan on the internet for about 30 minutes and then start watching 'That 70's show', loving the show but hating myself for watching it all this time. I suspect that my posture of lying down on the bed while I start working is one of the culprits which contribute to my being unproductive. I started today sitting on the chair and keeping my laptop on the table, and I think it has helped because I felt like writing something here today. I feel better that I wrote this as it was a good way to let out my confusions.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Great day

I'm reaching the end of a great day. Met a pretty girl today, finally went to gym after 5 days, read about 120 pages of 'The last lecture' by Randy Pausch - a Carnegie mellon university prof. which has turned out to be quite a great book till now. Had wanted to read it for a long time but the paperback edition came recently only. Although i have a sore throat and feel a little feverish, but it still feels great. Haven't had a great day for a long time. An episode of 'That 70's show' would make it even better but have to sleep now. I'm thinking i'll go to my 8 o clock drama class finally. Have been thinking about it for a long time but always end up oversleeping :)
Let's see if i attend this one.